overwhelmed

too much has been happening and i'm taking time out today.

seems appropriate now i'm back in the land of dorothy

even if i did miss the big party....what the fuck was i thinking?

revelations

* went to queensland
* hung out with the famiy
* developed a disgusting tooth abcess
* came home
* woke up this morning realizing that the life i have is not the one i want
* reinvention is the spice of my life
* it's time for a shakeup

the universe works in mysterious ways

things are shifting again more changes on the horizon and maybe it's because i'm still on holidays but i'm relaxing into the movements...enjoying a level of confidence i haven't felt in a long time and having fun with new and entertaining connections.

one more sleep and then i'm off to queensland for a few days. love the irony that i'm flying out of sydney for mardi gras this year. there are so many people coming in every day and coming out into the streets in all their fabulous glory. bit sad i won't be here this year but also looking forward to the break away.

oh my god! while typing this the bold and the beautiful is playing in the background, haven't seen it in years and what the fuck is going on with the woman who plays
taylor. just found this not so flattering before and after display but you can see what i mean. give up the scalpel baby!

phewwwwww!!!

1. my mother was here last week for a vist - great to see her and i learn't something new about myself. The older i get the more difficult it becomes to spend that much time with one person no matter how much i love them. we had fun and i once again enjoyed being a tourist in my own city. One highlight of the visit was going to the chinese gardens of friendship at Darling Harbour....









2. started my uni course....finally

3. partied hard over the weekend: i'm not going to be in sydney for mardi gras this year so this was my party time. Caught up with friends; enjoyed great food; was thoroughly entertained by Quick and Dirty performances; drank toooo much and flirted outrageously at Club Kooky!

4. re previous post: counting my chickens about counting my chickens - tautology or bust! the circularity of it all was doing my head in but now i'm learning to let go and let be. and if the past weekend is anything to go by i was certainly counting my chickens when i really didn't need to worry at all! Damn this quirk of insecurity...but even saying that, within the insecurity i have been feeling the most alive i have felt in a very long time...and for me that's the point....i'm taking the risk and i'm living and that can't just be all about idealistic hopes and desires but must include the practical realities also.

5. as i write this - i'm really quite tired. 14hrs sleep in 3 days is just not enough anymore hehe

LDN: lily