...maybe it's just me but i think i've jinxed it. got too excited. took the risk and i have no regrets. i feel like i've been given a taste of what things could be and a reminder of what i've lost and a huge awakening to what i've gained, non the least of which is more confidence and respect for myself. given all that though i find myself a little like the space in the photo....full of light and dimension and yet somewhat empty...
Thought fairday was going to be a wash out this year but thankfully it wasn't, it rained a little but not enough to stop the fun.
Ian Roberts was dunked....often
The crowd got down to some great live sounds
and of course there were the multitude of partially clad men
fairday kookie was cancelled but considering ihad been out every night for the week prior to sunday i actually wasn't that disappointed....need some respite from partying every now and then :)
mardi gras season has arrived. i know the launch and fairday are not on until tomorrow but last night i went to the opening night of Queer Screen, My Queer Career. Such a good night, great venue at the City Recital Hall and a good turn out to see the nine films competing this year. To be honest i was mildly disappointed at the outcome of who won, not to take anything away from the team who brought us "Every other weekend" i was hoping for "matchstick" to walk away with something but alas not to be.
Have been adjusting to changes in the balance of my world in the last few weeks, taking stock of what matters to me and what i am working towards. I start uni in two weeks and the anticipation is growing...i'm so excited by the prospect of doing something creative again and i can't wait.
I made a decision to take some risks in my life and am being richly rewarded by the universe in the form of a very cool guy i've been hanging out with recently. Nothing serious but a lot of fun and for me at the moment just what i need. I have long been a believer in fluid relationships and after having been in a predominately monogomous relationship for 12 and a half years, and now having been unattached for over a year, i'm enjoying the un-entangled companionship this guy is offering. Feels a little surreal to be involved on a regular basis with anyone but more than anything, the surreal aspect comes from my letting down defences and letting someone into my life, trusting someone and believing that the boundaries we have both set will be respected. This will not be heading towards coupledome, we are both very clear on that. I am appreciating our connection for what it is and i'm learning a lot about myself in the process. No expectations and no hassels connection: loving it!
i had been considering leaving my current employment but this doesn't feel like the right time to be doing that so i'm plodding along, still learning and being challenged, and doing far too much but it's a good thing....i have job security at a time when many don't and when i step back and with perspective look at my situation i've got it pretty good. And since other aspects of my life have changed the petty crap which comes with any workplace and day to day stress has melted away greatly, not completely but greatly and i'm finding the internal politics just don't effect me in the same way.
I've had amazing life changes and experiences of late which is why i haven't been blogging that much and that will probably continue for a while i suspect. Particularly with mardi gras celebrations and all the people places and things to see and do.
Loving life at the moment and feeling very grateful and fortunate. Wishing everyone a very happy mardi gras season
working - too much holidays - almost here uni - on the final countdown leavin on a jet plane - very soon hanging out with friends - good times have been had movies - seen a few music - my constant companion making new friends - fuck yeah!!
goodbye miss thing.. i will miss you... keep warm in not so sunny london xx
tickets are booked and now i will be looking forward to my holidays with even more anticipation. only a short trip but a few days in QLD and away from sydney is better than none.
