when worlds collide

had a very interesting time yesterday, celebrating with my chosen family, lots of chocolate and laughs and more than a little tension. not that the tension was bad, just a little akward adjusting to new group dynamics. for the first time in years i got together with my core group of friends and i was the only single person there - four couples and me.

i think what made this gathering unusual was that my ex was there with his new partner and the shifting dynamic of the group was a little challenging. emotionally i felt a little on edge but glad that i went. my ex's new partner is a lovely man and i'm glad he came and i got to spend more time getting to know him better.

today i woke with something akin to a hangover, which was the result of lack of sleep because i ingested no alcohol, and determined to make changes in my life.

i joined an online housemate service and have got some responses to follow up with so hopefully it won't take me too long to find a new housemate. have been procrastinating about it for a while and now i've gotten to the point where i just think "do it", make the changes and see what happens. scary shit!! haven't lived in a share house for over 13 years but hopefully it will work out.

feeling a bit emotionally wrecked but in a good way for the most part...

i missed this beautiful woman's concert, bugger, but i still love the music!