holidays continue

at the start of week three of my holidays. been pretty busy, recovering from my tassie experience, catching up with friends, seeing movies and generally eating too much cafe food - never thought i'd say that.

have re-organized my house but found out this week that my rent is going up so now i might have to get a flatmate to share the expense. would love to continue to live by myself for a while but that may be just a little too extravagant. don't know what i'm going to do - options - move/ get flatmate/ stay where i am by myself for a while and let my emotions settle a bit and not make any rash decisions just yet.

my ex has got a new boy. he told me when i got back from tassie. wasn't surprised but was a little hurt. i'm tired today and i think it's all the nervous energy i've been expending for the last couple of weeks finally coming to a head. I'm glad my ex is moving on with his life because it means i can do the same. was feeling a little guilty about playing with other boys, even though i have no reason too, and that was doing my head in. now that my suspicions have been confirmed i feel like i can let go of him and us even more.

think i've been doing a little bit of running both in my head and physically trying to avoid some of the hurt and pain but yesterday i gave in to it and started doing more art. haven't done a painting in a while and i've come up with some ideas i'm really pleased with. a little art and narrative therapy, i'm finding, is good for me right now, so today i'm going to paint out some of these emotions i've been feeling.

caught up with two blogger friends this week - they know who they are and i hope they know how much their support has helped me in the last few weeks. was great to see them and just hang out.

gotta tell ya i'm missing the computer this week, feeling the loss of some of my connection with the outside world..